I was reading this post by Miss.Mustard Seed the other day and boy, how it resonated with me! She was talking about being present in the moment- enjoying the now, and not just looking forward to the next big thing. That is a struggle for people like us who are so project oriented. I am a list maker, a goal setter- a DOER. Going over the list of things to do and crossing off what has been completed has always been a huge part of who I am and how I think. I am very task oriented in both my professional and private life.
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Quitting teaching was so incredibly liberating for me. For the first year I lived my life much like someone who had experienced a close brush with death, because for me it felt just like that. I was suffocating creatively and not able to achieve the goals I had set for myself. In short, many lists were made, but very little was crossed off. I was dying. Leaving that environment and letting myself breathe creatively was the smartest thing I've ever done. Now I teach, but in a way that is creative and fulfilling for me, but also directly meets the needs of my students and feeds them creatively. I couldn't be happier.
I've also learned to embrace the process that happens between making my list and crossing it off. I used to be so impatient for that line to be scratched in my planner, but now I really wake up each day and look forward to the small steps that will be accomplished. Glitches and hiccups that used to irritate me, now give me an opportunity to embrace problem solving and push me in my creative thinking. I've flipped the lens so to speak, and try to live in the moment (even the upsetting ones) and truly feel what is going on around me instead of looking to the finished product. In doing that I find that I enjoy the finish so much more because I took the time to relish the during.
I'm not a happiness expert, but making this slight change in how I view a project, and really paying attention to finding joy in the process has made all the difference in the world for me. Instead of thinking, "When we get moved in...." or "When that gets built/finished..." and picturing the happy moment happening then, I now realize that it's in the day to day, the hiccups and glitches, the process.
It is there that the joy lies waiting to be discovered.